It’s Wednesday, Right??

Wordless Wednesday
[and my own]
Webcam Wednesday
All in one fabulous post today.

For the Wordless Wednesday crowd

Love this kid to pieces.

I actually got Chazz to sit still a second and snap a webcam pic.

I love hanging out in his room on Wednesday mornings. And remebering to take a webcam pic makes it even more memorable.

He plays with his toys, and I catnap for a bit. 🙂 And we usually share a banana or a smoothie. (right now, a banana.) And listen to music. The kid loves tunes!

Webity Cam Wednesday 0_o

It’s that little bit of extra Quality time before the madness of the day begins. ❤


Day Three: Beautiful Disaster

The first two days of dropping Chazz off at daycare (and the whole daycare experience, really…) went a lot better than I had anticipated.

But morning number three? Was a disaster.

Chazz is too smart for his own my good. He knew the moment we pulled up exactly where we were and why.

And friends? He stuck to me like Velcro. Like super glue. Like white on rice…

And my boy was NOT letting go of me for dear life. He clung to my leg and cried a pitiful cry.

Insert panic.

I was already running late. My mind was a little more than flustered, and leaving Chazz there knowing he was crying would have made me feel aweful.

The look on his little face was heartbreaking. He has it down to an art. And I could have caved right then and there, called in to work, and spent the day cuddling, yet full of guilty.

I think the sitter knew I was on the verge of something, so she swept his cute little butt right up and distracted Chazz with a toy car.

Just long enough for me to sneak right out the door and off to work like a good girl!

And when I came to pick him up at the end of the day? He was right on her lap, snuggled in, watching a movie. (You know, he never sits still to cuddle with me… Sigh, toddlerhood)

And just when I thought I had been replaced… He walked across the room and right into this Mama’s arms.

And all of the panic and guilt I held in all day was instantly lifted. Gone.

Just a proud mama and her little man!

I think this is all going to work out just fine.

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Effing Eff. And Blood Work

Chazz’s blood work came back. Not normal. Low levels of growth hormone. Which would help explain why he’s in the 2nd percentile.

They’re going to “keep tabs.”

(Gee, fucking thanks.)

I don’t know what this means. For him. For us. For anything.

All I know is that I don’t want to talk about it. Or deal with anymore of this Optic Nerve Hypoplasia bullshit.

For now, it’s just snuggle time with my handsome little peanut. My pen and notebook to vent. And a nice bottle of wine Roman picked up for me.

Oh, and a pillow. To scream into. And possible smother myself in… I don’t know yet.

*Sorry for the fowl language. I try not to swear in public. Tonight? I just don’t care anymore.*

Happy 1/2 Birthday Chazz!

Wow. My Little Man is 6 months already! The big .5! And my, how you have grown:

Six months ago, I was holding a beautiful stranger. Your sweet dark eyes looked only to me. Now I’m lucky if you’ll hold still long enough to see your cute face! And you are no longer a stranger. You have a budding little personality, all your own! You are talkative and sweet. Keen and adventurous. There’s no fooling you! You are a momma’s boy through and through and love to snuggle. You often bury your face in my chest and giggle, which is the cutest thing ever!

But you always have time to be one of the guys and sit in your Bumbo seat watching Daddy intently. You save your biggest smiles for your him. I love the heart to heart conversations you have with him. Your little face has so much emotion and expression! And sometimes, he’s the only one who can get you to nap!

Everwhere we go, someone mentions how happy, sweet, or handsome you are. And I beam with pride! You have your Daddy’s big heart, and Mommy’s looks. My tan sweetheart with those dark curls.

You did wonderful at your appointment. On the way, you surprised me with a new sound. “Dadadada” all the way there! You smiled at Dr. Gill and showed off all of your skills for the nurse. You only cried for 4-5 seconds after your shots, but I squeeked Mr. Elephant and all was right and good in the world! You are getting smarter by the day! And oh-so-tough. You roll and spin and inch to get around. You push your tummy up off of the ground, sometimes even to your toes like a push up! You seem to learn something new everyday to surprise us with. You’re growing up too fast for mom! Cut it out, already!

Happy 1/2 Birthday, Monkey-Man!

All my love,

~~6 Month Stats~~

Weight:- 14.5 lbs
Length:- 26 inches
Diaper size: 3
Clothing size: 6 Months
Sleeping: More time in my bed than his!
Eating: Besides BM, he has tried rice and oatmeal, sweet potatoes, squash, applesauce, bananas, avacado, prunes, peas, mango, carrots, pear, and watered down prune juice.
Fave toy: Monkey Ball
Fave thing to do: Deep belly laughs 🙂
Latest milestones: Creeping, rolling, socializing, pulling up
Babbling: I heard a couple DaDaDaDa’s today! -5/12
Newest item/toy: The Sippy
Tooth Count: zero- still waiting!
I look forward to: Crawling. I think. And some “Mamama’s”
Fave Pic:

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Mornings as Mom


You are so sweet, Mr. Chazz. But right after you wake up, you really put your shmoozing skills in high gear!
You flash us your gummy little grin. You wave your little fists wildly. You start ooohing. And mommy and daddy can’t help ourselves!
I’m sure by now, you have us all figured out. And even though your fingers are pretty dang small, you still manage to wrap BOTH of us around them!
When I just can’t take the cuteness any longer, I pick you up from your bed, and my heart swells with joy. I see that your smile is infectious, cause daddy has caught it too.
I always look forward to morning, no matter how long the night seems to drag on!
I love your morning diaper change. Strange, I know, but you are so playful and attentive. And wiggly!!
My absolute favorite part of our morning? Snugglin’! I love watching you try to scoot around on the bed. Rubbing our satin blanket. You push your butt high in the air, only to topple over. You remind me of myself behind the wheel of my first stick, lurching forward, but going nowhere! Don’t worry, you’ll get out of first gear soon!
I enjoy laying you on my chest and just loving on ya. Kissing your chubby cheeks or rubbing your back. You always try to scoot up my chest and nom on my cheeks, sharing some drool!

This is usually when you strike up a morning conversation. It consists of aaays, oohs, ohms, mmmms, and the occasional grunt. These always morph into fierce demands for breakfast in bed and more snuggling!

Oh what a wonderful morning as mom!